I’ve had this nervous energy all day. I presume its some sort of anxiety and I’ve been getting it a lot since my blip earlier in the year. Never had it before then. Its like this energy in my mind and body mixed with a sense of fearful foreboding. Instantly I presume the worse is going to happen even in mundane tasks like taking my daughter for a short walk round the park. I’m leaning on the tranqs a bit to get me through and meditation when I can .. But it keeps coming back and its a part of the dragon I really want to shake. I’d rather have the ludicrous self confidence of hypo-mania than these dark energy waves. The mainstream news is not helping either, nor is the alternative media (I’m well aware conspiracy theories are bad for my health but I get magnetically drawn to them).
Is the world really a dark place for everyone at the moment. The media is doing its best to paint it as the end of times. But I see the sun, the rain and wind on my face. The laughter of my daughter. This bubble I live in is not that bad at all.
Though the waves keep crashing.