Yesterday was a very dark day for me. I don’t feel comfortable going into the gory details online but the result was my wife confiscating my car keys for my own good and an urgent appointment with the CPN who I’m currently waiting for.
What I don’t understand still is how my mind twists on me like this. Why?
I think a lot of people with bipolar ask why me but I’m actually more interested in how a human brain, that is generally well in the medical sense can be so self destructive. Is there some kind of genetic or evolutionary reason for it. Or is it just the way insanity works.
I did laugh today. So that’s a start and it makes it easier to realize that these deep dark emotions do pass. I want to be happy, I want my zest for life back and I can see light at the end of the tunnel. But I’ll be dragging my Dragon all the way there with me.