Small Wins

So I went swimming today and managed a few lengths, despite my AS killing me in the shoulder and spine and the fact there were other people in the pool. It’s not that I don’t like people it’s just there random and unpredictable. I love good company but go into meltdown whenever I’m near to many. Ironically I used to be a party person surrounded by dancing nutters to loud drum and bass.

How things change.

Anyway if I make it again to the pool I might actually qualify as someone who swims! My god a hobby that isn’t based on technology.

Oh and the pool shower has turned my hair into a cloud again, maybe I should also practice at man who gets his haircut.

Peace

D

Microlapse

When you start thinking you’re relapsing because of a physical illness pulling you down and your not quite sure how to get up again.

“I’m not sick but I’m not well” to quote Harvey Danger

Peace

D

Will the real D please stand up

OK I’ve realised I can no longer go round posting pictures of myself online from a decade ago so here’s a warts n all selfie.

Yes finally hairs starting to gray and looks like a cloud has settled on my head (will have to brave the torture of the barber soon; “so where did you go for holiday sir?”, “the mental hospital!”). All the midnight munching has led to a slowly growing second chin but hey at least my bhudda belly is out of shot.

There’s a vague smile, well that’s me being ‘stable’ allegedly. And yes I’m wearing my comfy fleece because yeah you know I really care about fashion.

I may have a lot of problems in my life, especially health wise but I will always bet optimistically truthful about what I am.

So this is real…

D

Heavy Armour

Side by side we were bullet proof, then the bomb went off and blew the roof.

My armour shattered and I was in the world alone, bare feet on concrete, well outside the green zone.

Waiting for the cracking of my bones, because look what’s it’s come to, hand on phone…

…world war three in my head, as I hear the dial tone… But I know you’re already gone, nothing more than a memory of love and song.

D October 2018