Will I Make March

My personal plan with WordPress expires in March 2019 and I’ve already had the hassling emails about price increases etc (well technically you now have to pay for the domain on top of the plan, which in my books is basically a price increase).

So though I may have 200 followers, only 20 odd are active and I’m not sure I want to fork out that amount to continuously spout bad Poetry from the mouth of a bipolary. If there’s a free plan I can default to in March I’ll stay, if not we’ll I guess my Web page precence that first started in 1999 comes to an end. To think I once live streamed to 60,000 music fans. How the world turns.

Will I miss it. Probably not. I have made something more precious than net infamy, something that can’t be quantified or packaged and sold. Nor will I let it be indexed here.

{Third week without a cigarette to}

Peace D

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Yearning

The amount I want to leave you is only balanced by the amount of love we have left burning, is there enough firewood left to deny this yearning. Through all these years it’s been a process of learning, that just maybe it’s all been a charade with me fawning.

I look at what we have brought into this world, I know I should stay just for that, but what happens to a heart in a devils pit. So I stand tall as I can, would you forgive it, if I choose a different path, apart but together.

D November 2018

Sometimes Being Home Is The Best Wander.

I got what I thought was an odd Christmas present from my mum in middle of my winter crisis, the thermal flask above. At the time the last thing I wanted to do was explore but now I kinda get the message, I don’t think it’s was meant in a literally go forth and wander sense. More like, your bipolar,it sucks, explore ways to cope with it and keep yourself out of hospital. I carry it everywhere now and the the most wonderful thing about this flask is my daughter thinks water from it is the best ever (even though it’s just from the tap). You know I think she’s right. Thanks mum.

Peace D

Birthday Revolution

It’s my birthday and I have had a great day. As I continue my kick back against digitization I will be now posting my poetry this way. I’ve swapped my keyboard for a fountain pen, my digital camera for a 35mm Nikon, my smart phone for a dumb phone (phone calls and messages only), ordinance survey and a compass instead of Google maps and many other small changes where I benefit from the off grid world and the online beast that seems to be devouring the planet. Mentally I feeling really good, I even go out now without a phone at all! Something that probably hasn’t happened since the 90s. I still use the big PC and tablet at home but hey, it’s always been easy to follow someone home so these two devices knowing where I live I don’t give an arse about.

I feel happy, I feel safe and I have my family. What more could you ask for on your birthday. I’m a very lucky man.

Peace D